" I saw he was loved out of pity, The worst kind of love there is.
To keep a hold on someone, Because you think they're weak "
Iris's P.O.V.
Nine pm and I heard the front door of the house open.
I was in the kitchen blending some fruits to make a smoothie when
Dylan walked in.
" Hey babe. Where's Louisa?" He came up to me and kissed my forehead.
" She slept early, I think her dance class was too stressful today"
He chuckled at my response and moved straight to the refrigerator to
grab an ice cream bowl.
" Dylan? Don't even think about running, you promised" Hunter's voice
preceeds his presence before he appeared.
We maintain eye contact for less than a second before he looks to his
cousin.
" Chill out dude, I promised and I don't fail" Dylan said as he shoved
an overfull spoon of ice cream into his mouth.
Hunter only scoffed and walked out.
And as usual, ignoring my presence.
It took every muscle to hide how much this affected me.
" Iris is there something going on that I don't know of?" Dylan asked
with a voice of confusion.
" What? No.. why do you ask?" My voice trembled though I suspect it
isn't obvious.
" So is it normal for you and Hunter to not talk for days? Or you guys
just choose to talk when I'm not there"
I laughed at his statement and poured myself a glass of my blended
mix.
Normal indeed.
" There's simply nothing to say" I sipped my banana and strawberry
smoothie and savoured it's lingering taste on my tongue.
" Iris in case you haven't noticed, you're almost tearing up. Your voice
is even wavering"
Only when he said it did I feel a tear drop ride down my face.
I really don't know what is wrong with me! Even the day Hunter does
nothing he still manages to hurt me badly.
" Dylan I don't know" I keep my glass back on the surface and use my
both hands to cover my face.
I feel stupid.
" Just talk to me, what exactly is wrong?" His voice now behind me and
he proves it by placing a hand on my shoulder.
" I don't know Dylan! I really don't know, I'm just.. it's just...
Arrgh, I have no idea what is wrong with me" I pull at my hair in
frustration and more tears slip.
" When did this all start?"
From the moment I discovered something I never expected to.
" I don't know"
" Iris you're confusing me" he scrunched up his brows and stared at my
face.
" I think I just need to sleep" I wiped my eyes and try to smile but
failed woefully.
" I'm gonna kill Hunter. I swear-"
" Hunter did nothing"
For the first time.
" Huh?"
" Dy, goodnight" I hugged him briefly before leaving the kitchen with my
barely touched smoothie.
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3:34am
And I haven't had an ounce of sleep.
I've been tossing and turning about restlessly, taken over five
glasses of milk, peed more than eight times, adjusted Louie's position
into every possible way but yet I feel like there's something I'm
missing. And I think I know what it is.
I need to clear my head.
To do that I'd need to talk to someone, but who?
My parents will freak out if they figure out I'm living with Hunter.
Megan and Meredith will think I'm crazy.
Mason is out of the picture.
Dylan is just too close to Hunter to discuss this with.
That leaves only one option and I think I know who to call.
I grab my phone and sit up on my bed before dialing the number.
It took three rings before it was answered.
" Hello? Iris?"
" Mrs Phoebe I'm so sorry for disturbing you"
" It's okay hun, are you alright?" She yawned while saying that last
part.
" I don't know. I can't sleep"
" I would have asked why you can't sleep but your voice tells me
something is bothering you"
" Yes, and I want to let it is out so I can sleep" I sighed, finally
getting a relief that I can catch some rest.
" alright. Go on"
Then I told her everything.
And by everything, I mean every single thing. Including Hunter's secret.
I know it's wrong but I need someone who will give me rational and fair
advice.
Mrs Phoebe loves Me, yes. But she also loves Hunter because he's like a
nephew to her, so if anyone is to give me a positive advice on
everything it should be her or Dylan but we all know why I won't involve
him.
Plus I can actually trust his mom to not say a word.
" Wow. This is not what I was expecting" her first comment to my story.
I chewed on my fingers and waited for her to continue.
" What about you?"
Huh?
" What about me?"
" Iris there's a part you're leaving out, I can feel it. If you want
total solution you have to give the entire problem"
That was my theory when I started narrating the story but I felt it
wasn't important to make mention.
" I really don't know how to put it" I complained cause it was true.
" Use English dear"
Gee.. thanks.
" Arrgh.. Mrs Phoebe!"
She laughed and I found it comforting at least.
" Fine. These days Hunter and I don't talk anymore. He doesn't even look
my way"
" Even at work?"
" Especially at work. Normally, I do have some kind of upper hand in his
office. Now I'm just like everyone else"
" So before, he paid you more attention?"
" I guess you could put it like that"
" Have you tried talking to him?"
" Yeah.. many times. But he never responds. He even called me
inefficient today"
" Wow, that's got to be harsh"
" It is. It really hurts. More than I think it should"
" Wait! Repeat that"
" It hurts Mrs Phoebe. So bad. I cried tonight cause of it"
" Cause he isn't giving you attention?"
" No... But yes. I know that's not the reason but I'm sure there is a
little part of it that is"
" If I don't know better, I'd say you're starting to like him"
My breath hitched.
Like him?
" No... No.. I don't believe you on this"
She chuckled and this time it was less comforting.
" Honestly, what's not to like in him?"
" Err- the fact that he's a beast"
" Was a beast"
" Doesn't change the fact that he's evil"
" Dear from what I hear, Hunter isn't evil anymore"
" That's not true, maybe you didn't hear me right"
" Okay"
"Mrs Phoebe?"
" Yes?"
" You're kidding me right? I can't like Hunter."
" Actually yeah. You can't and you don't. All you're feeling now is
pity"
Pity? That's odd.
" How?"
" Analyze it this way, Hunter was someone who's hurt you in ways we
can't even begin to mention and now a chance to save his life is in your
hands"
" Uhun?"
" That's where your pity comes in. Your subconscious is feeling pity
towards Hunter because it knows that in the end, you'd prefer Mason to
saving Hunter"
" What!? How can you say that?"
" But you didn't deny it"
" I never accepted either"
" Iris don't pretend with me. You're given a chance to terminate the one
person who made you regret life once and live with a guy who makes you
happy and is going to make a perfect father for Louisa. Your heart had
already made the choice before you thought about it. Your heart aches
when he pushes you away because you're trying to get close, trying to be
his friend. And do you know why you're doing that?"
" No?"
" Because deep down, you feel he's living his last moments on Earth and
that good nature in you is trying to get close to him for that reason.
Tell me the truth Iris, if you were asked to make the decision now, pick
Mason or get rid of Hunter which would you choose?"
I said nothing cause I knew she had a point.
" So I'm right"
" What can I do?"
" You already know what to do but you don't want to do it"
" I really want to help Hunter too, but he's giving me more reasons not
to by pushing me out"
" Did he ever let you in?" She chuckled at her statement but the silent
answer to this is actually a yes.
We never became what you could classify as friends but our interaction
had gotten different till now.
" I'm scared" I whispered in the receiver.
" Sweetie don't be"
" What if he dies cause of me?" I hated him doesn't mean I have the
heart to watch him lose his life.
" You can change that you know"
" Are you advising me to leave Mason?"
" I never said anything. I will never make a decision for you but I'd
rather give you choices"
" Your choices are confusing"
" Confusing? They're the only choices you ever had"
I bit my bottom lip before continuing
" I want to help Hunter, it's the right thing to do"
" Then help him"
" How? He wouldn't even let us breathe the same air"
" Then keep trying. I've known Hunter from when he was a kid and what
I've learned is when he needs help he'll never admit it or allow himself
to be assisted. Keep trying and he'll pop"
That's the problem.
" I don't want to keep trying"
She sighed at the other end and I heard shuffling.
" Iris, please listen to me. Like I said, I've known Hunter for a very
long time and he's almost like a son to me. Hunter is not a bad kid, at
least in the way I saw him. But the moment you told me all the things he
did to you it took me a while to believe it was possible. Everyone knew
he had a thing for ladies but we could swear on one thing, that Hunter
would never hit a girl. Heck, back in their school day, Hunter beat up
guys for talking trash to his sister that's why they put them both in
separate schools. So when I heard he hit you and even raped you I was
shocked and I felt something was wrong but this drugs issue explains it
all"
" Mrs Phoebe he caused me pain" I whimper.
" I know Iris, but I also know you're big enough to understand that this
choice you're about to make will have a grave effect on everything"
" I doubt so"
" Doubt everything, but you may never forgive yourself for indirectly
murdering Louisa's biological father whom she always wanted to know."
" He doesn't want me to help"
" He will never ask you for your help and you know it"
" Well it's his loss, he's basically losing his mind"
" Iris please help him. Hunter really isn't a bad kid and if he dies a
whole lot of people will feel his loss"
" He's too freaking stubborn!"
" Then put your own stubbornness on array. If he pushes you bounce back.
Make him see that you're willing to help him live just because you want
to be with Mason with a clear conscience. He'll understand it's a mutual
understanding between you both and get through with his plans fast so
you can be with who you really like"
" Do you think it will work?"
" It should under one condition"
" Which is?"
" Don't do it out of pity. Pity will only make him feel like a dead man
and he'll end up pushing you to be with Mason and risk his own life. Do
it cause you want to show him that you are bigger than revenge. Do it
cause you want to show him that he didn't break you in the past, that
you're strong enough to work with him for your own good"
And I smiled.
" Thanks Mrs Phoebe"
" No worries love. Goodnight"
" Goodnight"
And then, I went to bed like a baby.